I decided to try cutting onions and garlic out from my diet after watching an episode of Chef’s Table.
I did not end up meditating any better.
What I got was more inner peace and a far cooler head.
I made the decision to retire because of a bad bout of illness, but it ended up giving me the time and unconditional space I needed to rest, to think, to suffer, to grieve, and to heal in little tiny baby steps.
I have a long history with envy and comparing myself to others. It probably started in school when I realised all my new friends had mothers, and I was the only one who didn’t. Unfortunately, I didn’t stop there. Instead I found as many ways to compare myself to everyone else as possible.